One more semester and i'm done.
Honestly, though, i'm scared and worried. All these questions pop up in my head while i'm having senioritis, and it's making me sigh a lot. First off, I have a harder schedule next semester (3 finance classes and 2 supply chain classes). I regret a bit on making this schedule easier [like, so much easier since one of my fun professors taught 2 of my classes]. On top of that, i have my internship for the spring, and i'm not sure if it will extend to a full-time position. Honestly, though, it's more like...graduation is coming soon and i'm not ready to go straight into the workforce. Do I want to travel a little bit first before i go back to work or should i prepare for grad school? I haven't even prep myself on taking the GMAT/GRE yet either >-> So many things to do in so little time.
Along the way, i had to prioritize a lot of things for next semester. For example, i had to drop one of my officer positions, and it was hard becuz i really like the club. I'll still be a member, but i won't be as involved in the decision making. I switched to a different position for my other org, and i feel much more relieved knowing that there's two other officers who will help me throughout the semester while i take care of the things that i wanted to continue doing (ex: bigger projects.
Anyway, after that, i felt much more organized, but i'm still scared. After college, there wont be this kind of environment anymore. I feel like i'm thinking too much in my head and not enjoying life at all. Once i start working, I will be forced to think about my future more seriously, which i'm still not sure about yet nor really prepared for :( I just feel so overwhelmed and i can't see myself where i want to be in 5 years. I just know i love school, and that's where i want to be dealing with somehow. For now, I'll just do this one step at a time and enjoy what i can now before it's too late.
Fyi, i'm actually in Galveston for an officer retreat and it was great being able to see the oceanic view and relax even for just a little bit. Makes me realize how much of a wanderer i really am. I WANT TO TRAVEL!
Alright. Gonna relax some more. Ciao!
Sherlock Wall
This is me when I get bored and do more harm than good
Showing posts with label graduation. Show all posts
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Sunday, December 17, 2017
Monday, September 4, 2017
This is going to be a stressful senior year and what i'm feeling after Harvey
Yup, it's my last year in school, and I'm feeling a whole lot of different emotions at the same time.
That feeling of anxiety of finding out what to do post-graduate is scary and relieving. Even though a lot of people want school to be done with, i'm not really ready for that yet. I'm one of the few who really likes to study and chill with my friends everyday, but i know that's not going to stay like that forever. Eventually, i'll have to move on and start working on my career and love life, basically adulthood. It's just sad and scary at the same time. If i could have one more year, i think i would be ready, but right now, i just feel rushed and not prepared. Maybe becuz my first year in college I was not active enough.
I spent my first year in college at a community college, and i wouldn't say it's not good becuz it helped saved me money. However, becuz of the atmosphere around me, i wasn't really involved on campus. I made a few friends, but all i did was just homework and then going to work. I remember when I started my first part-time job the first week of college. It was stressful, but it was worth the experience. I just wished I had done more during the summer breaks, esp studying abroad. I would've liked it if I had traveled during my first or second summer break, so i could spend this summer actually looking for an internship i may or may not like to continue at a company i might work in the future in the United States, particularly close to home. Like, literally, when i came back from HK, i've been very anxious trying to find what kind of job offers to get post-graduate. I'm not even sure if i should immediately go straight to graduate school either. I kind of want to, part-time at least, but i don't even know which school i should apply to, hence i'm not sure about costs either. It's just stressful trying to decide and do everything in one year. Plus, i want to spend it having fun, but with those thoughts in the back of my mind, i can't relax that long. Sigh, i think i'll just talk with my advisors and see what they think. But first, getting those job offers is important and looking up grad schools i might like to attend in the future. It's time to grow up.
Anyway, so Hurricane Harvey-lemma just tell u, it was scary and exhausting. Even though my house was one of the many houses that didn't flood, some weren't fortunate. It felt like a year before the clear blue sky came up again (in actuality, it was 5 days of relentless rain). I even got school off for almost 2 weeks, whereas connie got 2 full weeks off. Like damn, it was just horrible. At least 30 people died in the storm, and i'm so lucky not to be one of them. There's still some flooding here and there becuz of the release of water in the bayous & reservoirs. Sigh, becuz of this storm, deadlines and events have been pushed back (esp with one of my clubs), too and now i'm not even sure how it's going to go this semester. It's been a while since i felt a need to actually do something and donate. However, i know that people are going to expect that we, as an Enactus chapter of Houston, will have to do something, on a big scale, but we seriously don't have the manpower :( I wish we had something that could be a WOW opportunity, but it's just not going oh so well with all the date changes right now, along with my senior duties. STRESSSSSSSSSSSS
Ok, gonna go read some fanfic/watch some Running Man before I get more stressed on Labor Day. Last day off before it's time to go back to reality after all. Ciao.
That feeling of anxiety of finding out what to do post-graduate is scary and relieving. Even though a lot of people want school to be done with, i'm not really ready for that yet. I'm one of the few who really likes to study and chill with my friends everyday, but i know that's not going to stay like that forever. Eventually, i'll have to move on and start working on my career and love life, basically adulthood. It's just sad and scary at the same time. If i could have one more year, i think i would be ready, but right now, i just feel rushed and not prepared. Maybe becuz my first year in college I was not active enough.
I spent my first year in college at a community college, and i wouldn't say it's not good becuz it helped saved me money. However, becuz of the atmosphere around me, i wasn't really involved on campus. I made a few friends, but all i did was just homework and then going to work. I remember when I started my first part-time job the first week of college. It was stressful, but it was worth the experience. I just wished I had done more during the summer breaks, esp studying abroad. I would've liked it if I had traveled during my first or second summer break, so i could spend this summer actually looking for an internship i may or may not like to continue at a company i might work in the future in the United States, particularly close to home. Like, literally, when i came back from HK, i've been very anxious trying to find what kind of job offers to get post-graduate. I'm not even sure if i should immediately go straight to graduate school either. I kind of want to, part-time at least, but i don't even know which school i should apply to, hence i'm not sure about costs either. It's just stressful trying to decide and do everything in one year. Plus, i want to spend it having fun, but with those thoughts in the back of my mind, i can't relax that long. Sigh, i think i'll just talk with my advisors and see what they think. But first, getting those job offers is important and looking up grad schools i might like to attend in the future. It's time to grow up.
Anyway, so Hurricane Harvey-lemma just tell u, it was scary and exhausting. Even though my house was one of the many houses that didn't flood, some weren't fortunate. It felt like a year before the clear blue sky came up again (in actuality, it was 5 days of relentless rain). I even got school off for almost 2 weeks, whereas connie got 2 full weeks off. Like damn, it was just horrible. At least 30 people died in the storm, and i'm so lucky not to be one of them. There's still some flooding here and there becuz of the release of water in the bayous & reservoirs. Sigh, becuz of this storm, deadlines and events have been pushed back (esp with one of my clubs), too and now i'm not even sure how it's going to go this semester. It's been a while since i felt a need to actually do something and donate. However, i know that people are going to expect that we, as an Enactus chapter of Houston, will have to do something, on a big scale, but we seriously don't have the manpower :( I wish we had something that could be a WOW opportunity, but it's just not going oh so well with all the date changes right now, along with my senior duties. STRESSSSSSSSSSSS
Ok, gonna go read some fanfic/watch some Running Man before I get more stressed on Labor Day. Last day off before it's time to go back to reality after all. Ciao.
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